What if I don’t know what I’m doing?

The weekly topic is usually a group decision. When Friday hit and we hadn’t yet discussed it, I threw in “Why I do what I do” as a topic as it felt right for the next steps in our journey. If we were to get behind one another’s businesses, it made sense to share what we do and why.

And then I started to write.

And I realised I don’t know what I do.

Reflecting on my life, these past two years was an exercise in faith. If success meant going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm, then I was incredibly successful having failed once again. Just this time around,  my enthusiasm was starting to wane. The only way I saw moving forward with enthusiasm was to hand my business over to God/Source/The Universe/My highest self or whatever it is that created me. After all, they couldn’t muck it up any more than I did.

Then day by day, I followed my inner voice and acted on the impulses. Sometimes that meant sleepless nights building platforms, sometimes hours of binge watching my favourite series. Always cake.

It’s not like the violins started playing… There were some rough times where I met aspects of myself I didn’t really want to know; parts of me that I have learnt to accept and am still learning to love; and parts of me I have hidden that were waiting to shine. At times I was courageous and struggled alone, and at times I was courageous and asked for help.

So… what do I do?

Firstly, I write. Because I don’t always know what I feel until I read what I’ve written. As I read what I have written, I look around me and witness that I have created the life of my dreams. While my work of art may be blurry, my unspoken, unarticulated vision is clear: I create spaces for entrepreneurs to find comfort in not knowing what’s next. That comfort is faith.

I also provide practices, processes, and platforms that invite them to hand their businesses over to God/Source/The Universe/Their highest self or whatever it is that created them; to co-create with their highest self the life of their dreams, break down the barriers to their natural abundance, raise their vibration, and help elevate the planet as a whole.

Why do I do what I do?

So that collectively, we can co-create a world that reflects the best version of who we all are, where poverty, disease, and disharmony simply cannot thrive because the frequency of love just doesn’t allow it.